Life was so good for Jessica on the morning of May 5, 2006, but by the time the day had ended Jessica found herself in a car following an ambulance that held her husband. None of the things that had mattered the day before crossed her mind. At only 32 years old, Jessica became the sole caregiver to her 28 year old husband. She cried out to her Savior for help and strength and just like He promised her, He came and stayed with her. At times her Lord would hold her hand, and at other times He would hold her completely. Her story is one of love, compassion, hurt, fear, strength and ultimately healing. Through the diagnosis of her husband’s life threatening heart condition and the year that followed you will see how the Lord used this couple in order to touch many lives and begin to transform them into what He knew they could be for Him and His work. Reading her emails allows you to walk along side Jessica in her valleys and on her mountain tops. If God can do this for her, He can do the same for you and your situation!
“As I sit this morning in Brian’s room, I am only with Jesus. What a special thing I have learned to enjoy. Jesus and I sit together. I saw His face in the kind nurses this morning and He helped encourage me with words from one of the nurse’s aids who transported Brian downstairs. I felt His love when I kissed Brian goodbye.
All of my life I have been afraid to be alone. This morning I finally realized that I never have to be. I feel a peace that I know can only come from the Lord. I feel comfort. I long for this to be over, but I know that God is in it all.
I sit this morning and Praise God’s name. How funny that may seem to you. I sit here this morning greatly and abundantly blessed by the Master. We have been able to tap into the awesome power of God. He is alive and working in our lives and in our unfortunate circumstances. He is in ultimate control. What a humbling place we are in to know that we cannot heal Brian. To understand our inability to “fix” things is at first frightening, but then becomes comforting. I am so happy that I do not have to make the decisions and God does. What a relief to me!
Please know today that God loves YOU! Please know that God wants to be the Master of your heart and life. Please know that God wants what’s best for you. God wants you to be happy and wants to make your situation or circumstances better. When you feel that God has left you, His is so close. You just have to open yourself to Him fully if you want Him to enter into your problem.
Brian’s condition and journey of fear and uncertainty is his and my testimony. God has called Brian in a special ministry to touch lives and bring hearts to Jesus Christ. Our nurse, Anthony, prays and refers to God as his “King of Kings”. What a testimony that Anthony shares through his actions and obedience to God’s will.
Just a few minutes ago a Dr. from radiology came to visit Brian. We explained where he was and this kind man began to share that Brian’s attitude and spirit has been an inspiration to him. He said that he sees patients everyday and that Brian is just different. He said before leaving that he told Brian he should become a type of counselor to people with medical hurdles in their lives. He said that Brian told him there was a purpose for his life and that is was to work in some way for God.
Each person that God has sent into our journey has been placed there for a reason. God really does have a plan. A special friend wrote to me once and said that life is like a big puzzle. We can only see the one piece that we hold and that God has the top of the box that shows the finished picture. How beautiful and how true!
I know this was long, but I have to share what God has asked me to share. Short or long there is a reason that he lead me to write these words that morning and then share them with you today.
“My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from Him.” Psalm 62:5
Jessica Daly, currently a public school librarian, has a bachelor’s degree in elementary education as well as a master’s degree in library science both from East Carolina University. She and her husband, Brian, have one child, Taylor, and live in Goldsboro, North Carolina.