IT

I don't know when I gave birth to it,

It could have been when someone

Spoke unkindly to me

And I had a fit

Or it could have been when someone

Would hurt me

And left me so fragile and broken in relationships.

Oh, I must admit

My heart crumbled

Into tiny bits of hate and resentment

It remained so dormant and still

Breathing and spreading itself

Like an open cancerous sore

Inside the valves of my heart.

It lived like an animal inside of me

With strong persistent demands

Drinking up my peace

Leaving me with no relief

Eating all the joy

That captivated my heart.

It left me so empty and drained

From running and controlling my emotions

It bombarded my mind like a train

Many sorrows and tears

Fell down my face like rain

Acquainting me only with excruciating pain.

One day I became very ill

Fear embraced my body and will

I went to see my Lord only hoping to gain

He used his stethoscope of love

As He listened to the beat of my heart

I told him all my symptoms of curses

And how I felt inside

His words were filled with compassion

As He spoke to me

He embellished my heart with affection

His love drew me ever so near

I humbly bow and asked him to help me

He forgave me and gave me a new start

My spirit felt free and renewed

I asked my Lord what it was

For It had suffocated all my love

His merciful voice spoke

As he graciously answered me

He said, “My child it was Unforgiveness.”